I was never initiated into a spiritual community. No ayahuasca. No meditation retreats. No teachers, no ceremonies — I've never even been to a drum circle. I wasn’t part of any spiritual culture at all. I was just a reclusive artist who loved nature and spent most of my time alone. And although words like ' awakening ' and ' dark night of the soul ' were in my vocabulary, I didn’t understand how literal they were. At first, “awakening” just meant questioning the world. Politics. Systems....